Friday, August 21, 2009
8:00 pm - Dinner is ok, I'm not a huge fan of Mexican... besides the chips and salsa. The kids are fighting over some paper. Lashawn and are are chatting, I really like her, she's a good person.
9:00 pm - Going for Ice cream now. This is way late for me to be out, but Taylor seems to be enjoying herself, I am too to be honest.
10:30 pm - In Bed, reading to Taylor -- I call Josh, he says he's just about out of the tournament. He will be home soon. We fall asleep.
12:30 - Eyes Open - No Josh.... I call
Stomach gets upset, as it does when I feel this way. I remain on toliet.
1:00 am - I look out the window and to my surprise, his car is outside, but he is nowhere in site. I walk around the house. I find him laying on the ground in our side yard smoking. I hate that he smokes. I walk away, saying not one word.
1:05 am - Who does he think he is?? He promised!!!! Fucking asshole, I'll show him.
1:06 am - Me filling up a bucket of water.
1:07 am - Me dumping water on Josh! At this moment I am feeling pretty damn good. But what did it do?? Did it was away his gambling issue, or his drinking problem???..... well no. Did it make him feel bad to lying to my face??? Well no it probably didn't. Damn good feeling gone.
1:30 am - I have locked my bedroom door.. try my hardest to go to sleep. I have work in the morning, and much to get done. Stomach is upset again, would like to go to bathroom.... but don't want to run into the fuck head.
I hear him at the door.. sounds like he is trying to get in.
Noise stops. I see a Shadow under the door. Hopefully he hung himself... well that's not nice.
I turn on the light... I see pink fuzz .. Taylor's pillow. He must be sleeping outside of the door.
I lay away practicing my Albie. I fall asleep.
3:30 am - I open door. There he is. I'd like to step on his face, but I wont. He look innocent when he's asleep. He can't lie to me, or hurt my feelings, he can just sleep. I leave the door open.
5:00 am - He jumps into bed.
6:45 am - I'm up, ready to jump in the tub. Fucking plug is broken... ughh. I really want to take a hot bath. I mess around with it for a bit.... I finally plug it with a rag.
Bath is half full when the hot water goes off.
Really?? I say out load... speaking to myself, maybe God, anyone who is there. Maybe nobody is there. Nobody is here.
7:30 am - I here my name... MOM. I run in, good morning beautiful.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Getting older I have come to terms with a couple things.
* Pooping is normal, everyone does it... there is no reason to hold it for 8 hours if u really just have to go.
* Buffets are the ghetto-ist places in the world.. but worth the torture on days when u are in the mood for everything
* Shoes should fit, they look worse and hurt more if they don't.
* Steak is actually really good cooked medium.
Wine is the best.
Smoking is not my thing.
The only thing that can heal a bad day is a bubble bath and silence!!
If you care to much about what ppl think, they will think that what they think, actually matters.
Be pretty for you. No one else!!
Pizza is the best food on this earth. That's just what is is... nothing can top the convenience and popular demand of pizza. My foam finger has Pizza #1 written on it.
If you don't believe who will
It's not what it is that matters -- it's what u see!!
Thanks for listening to me ramble, and put in random pictures!! lol...
Have a great weekend everyone!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Is it bad NOT to wear undies sometimes? That is the f'n question of the day folks!!
Flys are gross! I have a Chihuahua named Killer, he is the shizznit but he's getting so old it makes me sad. I love the heat hate the humidity.
When closing on a house there are so many stupid made up closing fees, all of which are made to nickle and dime you until u feel like punching bag that's about to explode.
I think Fake purses should be illegal. You know what, every time I say that ppl get all blaaazzza bla... It's wrong, and here is the thing peeps.... I am so for rocking out a cheap purse from Walmart... but Rocking a FAKE purse is SOOO LAME!!! Anyone who has these designers knows they are fake. So who are u trying to impress, your not impressing anyone who knows better. I'd rather be a last place winner than a first place looser. GO BLUE TEAM BITCHES!!!
Ok now that I have some ppl red in the face... today's poem will be about smiles!!
Smiles should be big
Smiles should be bright
It shows that u are happy
it shows that u are alright
Smile today to brighten someones day
if you wait to smile tomorrow and u may find sorry.